Esther Jane Glenn Keast...

[ladyamber]

For those of you wondering where I've been the last week, my grandmother died this past Sunday. The funeral was Thursday.

I'm taking the whole thing rather well, all things considered. These last two years weren't nice to my grandmother, as she was diagnosed with multiple myeloma not too long before she met my husband for the first time. Multiple myeloma, for those who don't know what it is, is cancer of the plasma cells, and rarely does someone diagnosed with the disease live more than two years past the diagnosis date.

I guess the strange thing is that I'm not really sad about the whole thing, at least, not in the traditional 'weeping my eyes out because my grandmother is dead and gone' sense. I mean, I'm sad that I'll not get to see my grandmother again until I die. I'll miss her terribly, and have since she passed. But I wouldn't wish her back; not the way she was when she died, anyway.

If I could have my grandma from five years ago back, the one that cooked like a fiend and went walking for two miles every day and did water aerobics and drove to see everything her grandchildren ever did... if I could have that grandmother back, I would wish with all my heart.

As it is, I'm glad that my grandmother is free of pain, and is with her Lord as well as her husband and family that passed before her.

But I'll miss you, Grandma Jane. Love you so much. And always will.

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[havocmangawip.livejournal.com]

We miss my grandma so much and it's acute while we are FINALLY clearing out her house. But she's dancing with grandpa and they are 18 again and eloping during the depression.

She's spoiling all my pets rotten for sure. I do hope she 'finds' me in the new place. I'm pretty sure she turns the basement laundry light off to 'check in' with me.

Hang in there.

[talesonelves.livejournal.com]

Sorry to hear about your Grandmother. Though it does sound like she has moved on to a better place. And I think that when one sees the end coming (whether it be one's own or a loved one's) it's easier to see them released instead of continuing on in the current not-themselves state.